I survived but is it worth surviving that fatal day..I think not because of d burden i place..It would b easier if i went n saved the trouble on the others..i dread this will last bu ti know it will leave a scar...i fear not the end but i fear the start of the end
as it is people r surprised i`m out n fine but it is the fact that i`m out i fear..For the end is always close but the end was not close enough..I would not post this if i was dead..but death is the perfect option now

As i have go through this before but never as severe as this time..I wanted to quit but i didn`t..This i know i should as it will ease every one else..people will say be thankful be happy ur out n walking but i cry n tear knowing that..If is was gone there would b no burden,no worries or no future..as the future of mine seems bleak,the past was clear n the present is here,i stand alone on the cliff of failure with my hands out i surrender to the fall..

For if i survive this fall i will clime a higher cliff n fall again.the agony of others n sweat given for me..i know is not worth it for me.I say this now i say it here to you all i wish is wasn`t here